Cat_Enigma's Litterbox

 So, I've been doing some job searching in hopes to find the remote job of my dreams and in some a requirement was a drivers license. Which is kind of confusing considering it's a remote job and all the work is done via the internet, like what do I need it for if I'm literally not going anywhere? Why look for a remote job? Well I've realized that in my 10+ years of working in retail that I don't really like people. Now my coworkers are never the problem it's the customer interactions that have ruined me for life however, I can fake it like a pro at this point but I'd rather not be emotionally drained at the end of the day. I hope to be able to get a job where I can write creatively and about topics that I enjoy but I suppose it'll take time to find the perfect job for me. Or perhaps it's only difficult because some companies ask for too much, like a cover letter, resume and years of experience in the industry even though it's an entry level posit...

I haven’t written in so long and I wonder if I still have the passion I once did, I have been happy and I have been sad and for the most part I’ve felt nothing at all. Yet still I write and even after all this time I feel this is the only place in which I can be heard and understood. I could never tell the people around me the way I truly feel inside, why? Because it’s hard to explain, I enjoy life but being alive is mostly a burden. Today has been the first day since the new year when I contemplated the continuation of life. But I want to fall in love and be truly loved but I find it hard to believe those who say that they do. Of course loving myself is the first step and it has been the most challenging thing to do when you have nothing but flings. So this year I’ve decided that I need to be celibate in order for me to put all of myself into myself and then self love will come. I chose to sell my material items and travel the country to not only discover myself but to find happiness ...