A Long While It's Been

   It feels as though I can never write as often as I'd like, every blog post tends to have the same title with a different subject. As does this one I'm writing at this very moment, every time I have a chance to write it seems to be years later from the last. I'd like to think that perhaps I've gotten busy with "life" or the world around me. But lets be serious, I don't have much going on other than work and reading. You may be thinking "don't you have a significant other?" or "you're young you should be having fun". In reality I don't lead the life of someone my age, I work often so I can barely afford a place to live.
   So "having fun" isn't an option because it all costs money, even dating costs money. I know most think a man should pay but I wasn't raised to be "taken care of" I was raised so that I knew how to stand on my own two feet. So I choose to be equal and pay for my share. If a man one day decides he'd like to pay then so be it, but I refuse to be seen as a woman who needs a man to take care of her. I've also realized in the dating world that most men can't see themselves with a woman who's a little "chubby", don't get me wrong they have no problem sleeping with a woman like me they just don't want to be seen in public with someone like me. Thus if they can't accept me as I am those men don't deserve any part of me later on.
   It's ridiculous that a man has no problem having sex with a woman who's got a little extra meat but when it comes to publicly dating her it's unthinkable. Now, there are men who don't see these things and focus on the attraction of the mind but they are a rare find in this day and age. The majority of men won't look at a profile to see the type of woman you might be they focus solely on the way you/your body looks. Needless to say my dating experience hasn't been the best in the world, and I'm sure it hasn't been the worst but it has definitely made me take a step back. Maybe dating isn't the healthiest thing for me right now, and honestly I don't have a problem with that. Focus on improving yourself, not making others happy.

End Rant.


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