And so it begins....

The fall gets nearer every day and the Fall school semester comes with it, I thought I was prepared but the closer it gets the more anxious I get which says I'm not ready at all. I have all the things I need when it comes to school supplies and a route there but my brain just can't cope. I'm excited to finally start on my Bachelors Degree in History and to meet new people and experience the University life. It's just the finding my way around that's nerve racking, I hate being late to anything important. With my learning being one of the most important things in my life it scares me to think I might miss a class or even be late. I assume the anxiety will pass after the first few days in the semester so I haven't panicked just yet, I'll save those for midterms and finals week. Yes I reserve my most dramatic reactions for things I feel deserve them, I know it sounds strange but you can't just waste them on something like a missing sock. I don't really care for much in this world but you can definitely count my school work and grades as one of the few. But don't think I'm some emotionless monster, I love animals and my parents and like 2 of my 3 siblings and an occasional friend. Though I rarely ever say the word love as often to people as I say it to random animals I'm meeting for the first time. I suppose animals are easier to express emotion to because they're just happy for the attention, they don't ask questions and they don't judge you for doing the odd things you do when other humans aren't around. But I've seriously gotten so off topic you'd think I actually talk a lot, and if you've ever met me you know I hate "small talk" and "chit chat". I would rather just stop talking than think of a clever way to end a conversation, most people are lucky I don't just walk away when I'm done. It would be hilarious of course but I have yet to perfect the maneuver, maybe one day when I'm older. But that's enough blabbing for now, hopefully I'll be back soon.

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