The Rise of Vamp Ire

She was born the day I finally decided that I was tired of being kind to those who did not deserve it. She became my alter-ego at first, the person I would become when I wrote because she was not afraid to speak her mind about anything or often anyone. But then as I started to realize that I enjoyed being the horrible person that she was and so I let her take over completely. I let her personality become the only one I had, letting the darkness spread through my veins and it felt good. It was then that I became what I so helplessly desired, the corrupted soul. Yes, I wasn't sure at first if it was the best thing to do I was so scared of being judged and ending up in hell. But as I've come to question is hell really what it's described as in the bibles?, or is it just a way to scare people into doing things the church wishes of them. I may never know and now I could care less, for I am as faithless as any other gothic. Yes, you've read it correctly Gothic and no I am not a devil worshiper as most people assume when they hear it, and also just because I don't look the part it doesn't make me any less of one. To be Goth or Gothic doeesn't depend on the type of clothes you wear or who you worship, it is simply based on as some say the inside. The true sinister being residing within is what it's really about and the fact that you're not a psycho should not make a difference. Because, darkness can reside in any one who lets it, and thus I leave you now, Più tardi.

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